June

Most mornings, no matter the frown of cloud above, I manage to execute what I think to be a finely honed routine of creeping down stairs, avoiding the ones that chatter back, quietly grabbing some (any) wellies, perhaps a coat if there’s one en route, and then making my way through the kitchen and out of the back door.

Just recently I’ve realised that throughout out this assault course my stomach is clenched and my heart tight. God knows why. It’s not as if anyone’s going to ambush me as I reach for the ‘handle to freedom’. Perhaps it’s born of times when the children were very young, and those same griping stairs would be enough to trigger a dominoes of restless calls along the corridor. (And now of course, I’d love nothing more than one of these teenagers to wake and join me in stealth mode as I slip out into the early light.)

Living on the edge of a field that remains pretty much untouched except for topping in late summer means that I have the undeniable luxury of being able to enjoy each subtle seasonal shift as it plays out over every dip and rise of this small patch of countryside. It’s banked on the east side by the tightly entwined arms of ancient hornbeam, holly and hazel, held in check along the south edge by an old mill pond and the west side is cosseted by ancient woodland that once held the title of Brooker’s Rough.

Today as I step out of the kitchen door I’m wearing my husband’s dressing gown, and my daughter’s old wellies (first gently shaken to encourage the exit of any overnight prisoners… beetles, spiders, the occasional wasp).

Last night, as the sky flooded to indigo the song thrush filled his chest and let fly his now regular soliloquy from his leafy perch in the old oak. This morning however, it’s the wren’s turn. He usually clears his throat at around 4.30 and by 5 he’s into his stride, and melting my heart regardless of the tiredness from such an early rise.

Down through the field, lifting the hem of the dressing gown, but not quite high enough; the grasses have grown and each spear is loaded with dew.

The islands of yellow rattle have spread and shifted from their original anchorages of last year. They’re beginning to bloom yellow plumes, like miniature cockatoos perched and peering out from the rigging of a mast. Red, striped, white and a shy ramble of suckling clover are now filling in the stubby areas where the grasses haven’t managed to quite take hold. These colourful pompoms tend to flourish where the deer like to feed, also happily sprawling their Pollock-ish palette where we’ve mown a path to the veg plot.

Hitching up the dressing gown and tying a wholly nameless knot, I strike out into the ocean of green.

It’s a little early in the year for the grasshoppers, so there’s no one jumping into my wellies as I weave my way down through the tall grasses that whisper against thighs and tickle at outstretched palms. The Spiders are here though…. this early, trampolines are loaded with water droplets, the occasional husk of a fly, but not food. Others have woven dark little shafts amid a tightly woven blanket of web, and just my footfall sends these funnel weavers into a frantic gallop across their taut sheet in the hope of breakfast.

I’m running a mental tick list as I tromp, now wet legged…

Yellow Archangel

Orange Hawkhead (very much love this fiery-faced beauty)

Common Spotted Orchid

Rough Comfrey

Birdsfoot Trefoil

Meadow Buttercup

Soft red spears of young Sorrel

Overhead the quiet air is sliced by the keening cry of a buzzard that for the last 12 years has made this his home and together with his mate, has successfully reared a new generation almost every year. She will be sitting on their clutch right now, though in a thoroughly modern way these two will share parental duties.  A couple of days ago this buzzard received quite a dressing down from two rather rattled crows. Crows will defend any perceived threat with apparently little regard for personal safety, but buzzards are unlikely to fight back mid-air, preferring to dip and dodge the airborne assault. So the sweary acrobatics ended as quickly as they started with the buzzard ducking out and heading back to his nest.

The light blue puddles of common field speedwell are still very present, very welcome, and as I make my way towards the guard of silver birch that edge the forest I can see pale mauve splashes of wood speedwell spilling out from their shady earthen beds.

It seems just yesterday that this forest was a carpet of fragrant blue, and yet its now completely engulfed in an ocean of breast high bracken. And it’s humming! The horseflies are back. There are very few creatures on this earth that I struggle to admire, even if I don’t like them. Horseflies fall into this category. I’m sure if I googled them I would find something to admire them for. But I’m pretty certain that the silent, stealthy, weightless bite of a horsefly would overshadow any perceived wonderment and appreciation of such a relentless and opportunistic diner.

I increase my pace, flapping my arms rather uselessly, wishing I had a few more appendages, with laser guns! trotting up through a narrow path banked by sandstone and outcrops of wild and flowering rhododendron, I reach peak ‘windmill’ and run through the overgrown glade of yet more bracken to the safety of my studio.

I’m home now and I’ve made coffee. I’m also trying to find that tube of savlon to rub on the red and rising bites.

A few weeks ago, my mother mentioned a book that she swears she gave me a long while back when my grandfather died. But I had no recollection of having it.

I’ve just found it. It’s a 1965 edition of The Concise British Flora in Colour, by The Rev. William Keble Martin.

Its pages are foxed and much yellowed and there are many varieties of flowers I know to be missing. But the illustrations by Keble Martin are beautiful. They’re botanical, honest and clear. But all are carefully portrayed with a genuine love and enthusiasm for his subject, and as such they are radiant. Among these pages I’ve found scraps of paper with notes written by the hand of my grandfather… plants found, dates of discovery, the telephone number for Kew Gardens.

A pressed meadow buttercup greeted me from plate 3, and I found a common spotted orchid slightly stranded among the geraniums of plate 19.

I’d somehow forgotten that my grandfather, as well as often being surly, incredibly capricious and contrary, was at his core deeply in love with nature.

I’m holding this book and I’m feeling quite tearful… I’m glad I found it, and I’m grateful to have at least bit of that difficult old bugger near by. And on a practical level, I can honestly say that navigating this particular book is a lot easier and infinitely more pleasurable that trying to google everything.

Long live the paper book.

 


Look what happened...

The sun shone, didn’t it.

So I ran out with washed sheets, bundled and clutched like a wet baby to my breast.

Even the duelling blackbirds seemed becalmed and distracted from their territorial face-off that has been a constant punctuation to every day over these last few weeks, come rain or indeed snow.

The hives hummed and burped out big plumes of happy, hungry bees like school kids racing for the classroom door at the first chime of the lunch-time bell.

I even saw the first and hopeful embryonic purple florets beginning to bud up on our tired but stalwart stems of overwintering broccoli.

Then the heavens opened and let the bathwater out.

And it really hasn’t stopped since.

Today is the 2nd April, the day after Easter Sunday; and the only difference between yesterday and today is that I’m not quite as full of food, and that my boots have dried out a little from leaning against the Aga overnight. Outside the sky is still a heavy frown of rippled grey; Spring is wearing this weather like a thrift shop find of pre-loved trousers, and she didn’t think to rummage for a pair of braces.

 

A couple of days’ ago I took and early morning walk with Billie, our lurcher pup, into the wood and down to the pond. The edges have been churned to a bog by the many deer as they brace, stretch and dip to take a draft. Sadly it’s impossible to approach the pond in ‘stealth’ mode with Billie as she’s only one setting, and that’s ‘bounce. So inevitably we disturbed the wild mallard couple that have taken up temporary residence.  They’ll be back, no doubt, but they’re brave to make this their home. Last year we lost all of our chickens to a very determined vixen who’d cubs to feed. We know this, because we saw her, a lot. And actually watched helplessly as she trotted off with our last hen held loosely between her jaws, feebly flailing like a spent umbrella.

Her last performance was bitter sweet: we spied her as she and three cubs lazily played in the bottom corner of the field, by the old elephantine body of a fallen Beech. Any resentfulness I felt, was immediately quashed by a flood of respect … She’d successfully raised a lively, healthy family. We’ll just have to get smarter if we want to keep chickens again.

Perhaps this choice of home is as good as any, but having already found one forlorn and broken duck egg in the long grass, I fear for any future brood.

The flagstaff Iris are a little way off from budding, but the St. Agnes’ flowers are now in full bloom, their snow flake heads nodding and mirrored in the quiet waters. I can’t wait for the blink-and-you’ll-miss-it zoom of dragonfly that frenzy-feed later in the year; the air is warmer and so pond life peaks, with thick and wining clouds of excitable midges gathering above the zig-zagging skaters and rowing water boatmen.

This morning, another walk, led by the need to check on the hives and then further to the greenhouse, to water and encourage this year’s seedlings. It is absolutely, relentlessly HOSING it down. Never the less it’s still pretty lovely to be out. The rinsed air feels and smells balmy, delicious even. Just recently the old hornbeam and holly hedge that hems the field has become decisively re-punctuated by perfect, badger-shaped holes. Billie and I make our way to the gate at the west corner of the field, onto the rutted lane and take a walk. I can see from this side, they’ve actually made very tidy work of their runs.  Each one is banked and daubed with beguiling constellations of primroses and wood anemone that seem to glow in this soggy half-light. It’s almost as if they’ve taken pride in their ‘doorsteps’… ‘Badger Lane’ has never looked so decorative.

 

When we first moved here, there were badgers… we knew this from the hair tufts caught on the old and rusted barbed wire at the bottom of the field, the well maintained latrines dotted throughout our wood , and from the occasional sightings of dear and bumbling backsides caught in retreat as they hurriedly nosed their way off the lane and through the hedge. But then all signs petered out and I feared that we’d not see them here again. But there’s clearly one ‘advantage’ of having dogs. And that’s if there’s a new perfume in town, then everybody wants to be the first one to sample it. And the smell of badger poo is unforgettable.

And so the brocks are back.

Controversial I know, but I’m delighted.

 


First Catch Your Fish

 

 

So she’s finished.

What an experience. The last time I painted something this size was about 4 years ago… and I can still remember the transition from clammy, shaking hands as I made the first brushstroke onto the chalked-up canvas… right through to the point where I was squinting shut with one eye, like a ‘proper’ painter might… tilting back on the heel of my foot before zeroing in to daub a more confident stroke of colour.

I have got a thing about fish, it’s true. But this is perhaps the largest and most ambitious of visual mouthfuls I’ve ever taken on.

This is Brenda the Blue Fin. Endangered now, but many years ago I can remember enjoying my first ever taste of such a fish.

It was served raw, sliced finely by a sashimi chef (no kidding) on a Japanese schooner that had moored up alongside the boat I was crewing.

I was 21 and had wangled myself onto a yacht to take part in a race, and we’d all just arrived in St Lucia. Having sailed over 4000 nm and in a high state of boat fever we couldn’t wait to spill off and at least put a little space between us all. We looked like a small, straggled squabble of seagulls as we wobbled off and wibbled our way to customs and immigration, and a quiet beer.

By sunset, we’d all showered, regained a sense of feeling more ‘human’, and had received an invitation to board the Japanese schooner and celebrate the race fleet’s arrival.

I shall never forget that first bite of bluefin and the genuine high it delivered from eating such pure, unadulterated protein. Unexpected and very surreal.

I’ve wanted to portray this extraordinary fish ever since. I just didn’t want to represent it as something edible… I needed to make it the hunter, rather than the hunted.

 

At 48 x 30 inches, her sea of canvas lends her ‘just’ enough space to make a game of chasing her moving lunch of anchovies as they slip through her inky black ocean. Their tails are a snout’s nudge away, but given her innate ability to reach speeds of up to 43 mph they don’t stand much of a chance… At least it’ll be relatively quick, a mere gulp in time!

I’ve absolutely adored painting her, and her fleet of food! So many hues and textures… completely in love with her armour-like patina… the Boudicea of the sea.

Time to clean the brushes, and my hands, elbows and the remaining smudges of oil paint from my face, and celebrate with a cup of tea, and perhaps some anchovies on toast…

Huge thanks must go to you all, for your boundless enthusiasm and words of encouragement. They make a world of difference to what I do.

Happy happy Friday to you all!

 

 

p.s. She is for sale, so do get in touch if you’d like to know more.


March

… began with enough snow to wholly cloak our little corner of the world in white.

Once this crystalline blanket had settled, all visual and audible noise became muffled, with only the most prominent features able to rise above the swaddling of snow. And we became housebound for 3 days.

On the first day, I made a slow and squeaky hike through the field to the veg beds, to find the plot dressed as some huge, badly made bed, its sheet barely tucked at the edges, with more than a few old marrow bodies slumbering beneath. I looked beyond and noticed for the first time, the stripped-back woody stems of forgotten purple cabbages; reaching out from their sea of snow they appeared as the tentacles of some exotic red-armed octopus, buried but still flailing.

Onto the tiny orchard to check on the new, young plum and pear trees, only to find their little arms bravely basketing at least their bodyweight in snow. A gentle shake and they were free to wave once more.

I realise that birds don’t have the luxury of marvelling at the ‘beauty of it all’, and no more clearly was this proven out than watching two male blackbirds perched and punchy, oblivious to the maelstrom of Winter in flux, and slinging verbal abuse at one another. It may have had something to do with the last remaining baubles hanging from the crabapple tree.

With the dogs almost in tow (somewhere, but probably rootling at a freshly laid cluster of deer poo) I carved a path across the bottom of the field. Through the fringe of silver birch I spied a gathering of Canada Geese and Mallard, two lofty and nervous Cygnet swans edging the group. All of their usual moorings in the lake were partially frozen, so territorial lines had to be renegotiated and possibly crossed in order to find food and new anchorage.

Through the woods we creaked, weaving among Birch and Beech, one footfall for ever two of deer, branding deep into untouched powder. A startled cloud of puffed-up pigeons lifted as one from their lanky Ash, clearly not expecting visitors in this weather.

This is my daily ritual throughout the year, and sharing it with an old terrier (Chewie) and a lurcher puppy (Billie) is a wonderful, if a bit of a pain when I’m hoping to listen out, and spot any new feathered or furred guests in the woods. However, during the snowy days… watching Billie in raptures, as she discovered the Marvellous Circus of Snow that had filled every bluff and badger hole, it was a complete joy. I found myself laughing madly, and joining in. Which of course seriously confounded the terrier. Humans just don’t do that unless they’re small and loud with grabby hands. And those kind of humans are to be avoided at all times.

Forging onwards we made it to my little studio. Negotiating the slippery wooden deck is always a bit of a challenge. I’d carefully placed a scavenged beach rock on the one sagging board so I wouldn’t step on it and bring it to an untimely end. But Billie likes stones, had picked it up and taken it to her place-where-all-special-things-must-go! We made it in, board intact, slid the wedge of fallen snow back out, and shut the door. Settling onto chairs, cushions and into corners, we all got on with our usual routine… drawing for me, sleep (and much farting!) for them.

Watching a season’s progress, through my studio window is inspiring, and admittedly quite distracting. Every nuance of colour as it blooms and fades has me running through paint names in my head, making up new ones. I’d like to fix a camera up and record a whole year of this kaleidoscope.

During these snowy days this little studio flared to an almost otherworldly state of bright. The hours of work played out till way beyond the usual sundown, such was the lingering gaze of reflected luminosity. But by the second day of being on this ‘island’, the weather turned. A gathering grey of raging winds stropped in from the east, grabbed great handfuls of snow and began hurling them to fly like torn bed linen across the glade beyond my studio. By sunset a spill of indanthrene blue had flooded the sky to brimming. Turning off the studio lights, we made our way down through the snowy clumps of rusted bracken to the edge of the field, finding it stirred and blurred by the gusting gales, yet it still retained its lucent glow like some deep and dwelling creature of the sea.  We could’ve been anywhere.

I’m writing this having spent a very early morning in dressing gown and wellies, walking with the dogs across the field and into the woods.

Everything has become green again and it appears that rather than killing off any new growth, all infant borage, mallow, and knapweed seem to have survived and thrived beneath their temporary blanket of snow. Beyond the birch line, the geese, ducks and swans are once more spread wide across the dark, still canvas of water, no longer forced into close proximity by a prison of icy confinement. There’s a level of noise that is almost deafening, such is their enthusiasm for open debate.

All is vivid, visible, and almost shouting out for Spring to hurry now.

And of course I feel the same. I’m more than ready for the cacophony and clamour of chatter and colour that she will bring.

But what a grand finale that was.

Yes, we were stranded, but I’d forgotten what peace of mind this aspect of ‘islanding’ can bring.

 


February, you tart...

First you walk mud through the house, leaving a clumped and wet trail of Winter’s tilth. Then you tease us with small and beloved envoys of Spring…

Crocuses are beginning to stretch their pale, swan necks, wide-open beaks showing yolk-yellow throats; young, sunny-faced primroses can be found peeking tentatively from among the teeth of last year’s bramble, only to become wind-whipped and drowned beneath a deluge of yet more rain.

And then there’s my bees. What are they supposed to make of this early call to arms? With their queens still in slumber, recovering from the previous year’s marathon of progenitorial magnificence, they’re unprepared and there are signs of mild panic. Occasional clouds of pollen can be seen, lifting on the wind like a fine curtain of mustard powder from the early-formed tails of hazel catkins.  But it’s the brave and fool hardy bee that leaves the warmth of the hive and tries her luck during these wet and wild days that have chased us into this month.

In my efforts to expend some of our lurcher pup’s endless supply of bounce before bedtime, I’ve taken to grabbing a torch and walking down through the field at night. Rather predictably my feet steer me to my usual route, through the tired and bumpy islands of tangled grasses, to the gate of the vegetable garden.

During daylight hours – at this time of year – the naked beds wear a forlorn and slightly reproachful air,  their empty gaze being more than a little imposing. But under torchlight, the bare bones of huddled pea canes leaning at the far end are just enough to raise hope, and the corners of my mouth. It’s been the soggiest of Januarys and the ground is depressingly waterlogged, incapable of drinking another drop. But perhaps this bodes well for a lusty surge of verdurous growth, come Spring.

The familiar dull, slide-clunk of the gate latch, and we’re heading back home now, through the wet field, when the torch light snags on the early, embryonic leaves of field mallow, and then the tiniest lobes of the borage that we sowed last year!

And with all the enthusiasm of that blackbird that strikes up every morning as the light teases at the far edges of the forest, I find my bounce. The puppy thinks I’ve gone nuts, but is more than happy as apparently bounce is a lot more fun than trudge. And to be honest, this Winter there’s been a fair bit of trudge.

I’ve friends who relish everything about Winter, and I too adore the time and space it allows for quietness, and contemplation with perhaps a measure of single malt to warm ones thoughts. With it’s darker, colder hours one is freed up from the frenetic level of activity that we come to associate with Spring, then Summer. There’s the comforting whiff of a stew or a roast that can slip up the stairs and lurk for days at a time. And with the scarcity of daylight there’s a unique and exquisite touch that this season brings, when the sky cracks to let a finger of sun slip through its vast acreage of grey; the way it gilds all that it touches is unsurpassable in its pure and unalloyed beauty.  Nevertheless, I think even though we may relish these delights, we all get to a point where we’re done with the heavily knitted nesting of Winter.

For me though, more than a lengthening day, or the steady creep of mercury, the shift towards the new season is signalled by the arrival of the seed packets.

It’s like a ticket to Summer.

 

Happy delivery, from Brown Envelope Seeds

 

 

 


January

It feels like January slipped in through the gap in the window that was left by the piece of old and crumbling putty that fell out in October.  A driving rain, goaded on by a particularly vicious westerly, managed to dig its fingernails along the edge of one of the old panes of glass above the staircase that winds down to the kitchen. This window has needed replacing for a while, but until we get around to it, it’ll just have to keep on whistling with the westerlies.

Last year was a quite a fearsome one for adventures, some fabulous and some a little scary, even more so than the paragliding.

So I thought it might be timely to have a brief and visual flick through just some of the lovely projects I got to work on, as an aide memoir, and also because its easier looking at those bits than recalling the scary bits.

There were some wonderful commissions including a man with such a passion for signal crayfish that he actually bought the models from Billingsgate and drove them to my front door. He arrived so early in the morning, that I was able to greet him in my husband’s dressing gown, a pair of wellies, and little else apart from a new puppy draped across my shoulders like a living, breathing stole. Always pushing the boundaries of professionalism, me.

 

There were other creatures from the sea, too, including Garfish, Mackerel and a huge Turbot in egg tempera.

 

Then Spring arrived, heralded by a series of joyful commissions that to me, embody all that is good and hopeful about the season…

Summer eventually sashayed across to centre stage, bringing with her a delicious season of bountiful colours and textures, both in the field and vegetable garden. A walk among the long grasses and wild mallow, to dig, weed and gather from the veg beds always brings endless inspiration, and so it was quite timely to be working on a brilliant new cook book by the Queen of Persian food, Sabrina Ghayour. Feast was a joy to work on. As I read each recipe it was as easy as breathing to visualise the illustrations to marry to the words and menus. Gorgeous recipes too… I’ve never felt quite so hungry while working on a cook book!

Another beauty that ambled in with the summer was a complete gem of a story written by Rosamund Young: The Secret Life of Cows.

Reading this gentle, and wholly relevant story was both revelatory and life affirming. We had raised our own pigs the previous year and the whole experience from their arrival to actually butchering and eating them was incredibly humbling, a complete honour. At that moment, her words felt like they were written for me. And so to be asked by Faber to illustrate her story was a delight.

 

 

As the Summer began to retreat, Autumn brought with her an ‘R’ in the month, and so there were mussels and oysters to illustrate (and eat).

 

 

Finally, as Winter crept in and all the autumn colours faded back into the soil,  the skies became flushed with some of the most memorable sunrises and sunsets I’ve been lucky enough to witness. With her arrival came an almost manic need to keep busy, lest she catch up and render me petrified. I holed up in my studio, sharing the space with the new pup and the old terrier who’d intermittently befoul the air with their occasional, somnolent farting. To be honest it’s a miracle that I managed to draw anything… challenged with the unenviable choice of passing out from either the cold, or asphyxiation!

Here are some of the last things I drew before the year teetered over to draw the curtain on 2017.

I’m trying to avoid coming out with a seemingly stale and much hackneyed way of saying this. But the truth of the matter is I’m so grateful to you all for your incredible support, enthusiasm and humour throughout 2017. Without it, the scary bits might have been a little too much to avoid lingering over… a bit like looking at a the edge of a steep rock face, that you ‘just’ managed to convince your feet from falling down. We all know we almost fell. But we don’t need to hang around the rim of the precipice, mithering over what could’ve happened. It feels better to marvel at how we managed control our disco knees and keep going.

Here’s to 2018, where we all climb stronger, look up more and enjoy the skies.

With love, and thanks,

Anna


October

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October, and the daily ritual and rhythm of a walk through the field is calling.

There’s the added boon of a new pup, Billie, to enjoy this time with me. She’s all legs, oversized feet and a mass of brindled fluff, and she reminds me of the easily overlooked joy of just being in this sea of green.

The field is beginning to hunker and huddle for Winter’s approach, and much rain has tramped down even the sturdiest and most stalwart of grassy outcrops.

The acrobatic ‘hoppers have left the stage, but in their place many spiders have been busy weaving huge trampolines between the hollowed husks of the once blowsy petticoats of mallow. Their silken skeins are taught with the anticipation of a meal; the master builders waiting at the edge, one foot poised to feel the slightest ripple of the foolish and fallen.

Billie is completely oblivious to these small but definitive set changes; her head is down and her nose is full to brimming with the unruly and chaotic torrent of new scents that are clambering for her attention as she snorkels through the dewy grass. There’s rabbit (so many), deer and fox (damn that beautiful fox) and also the freshly dug, blackberry-blue of a badger latrine. As a youngster she hasn’t quite mastered the skill of self application, but I can tell that to her it’s like raiding the shelves of a perfume counter… Penhaligons-for-pups. Her eyes are slightly crazed and showing a lot of white!

Onwards to the veg patch. It’s not looking its best, but even in this state of semi-decay there are elements that never fail to make my heart happy.

The empty hulls of forgotten and spent marrow lie stranded in their earthy bed like washed-up shipwrecks unceremoniously dumped by the careless hand of a storm.

The overwintering broccoli are all wearing peppered leafy overcoats,  morse-coded with the little of dots and dashes… ‘the coast is clear stop come dine here stop’. Evidence of a successful assault by the late army of Cabbage Whites.

And then there are the beautiful slow-nodding pompoms of overgrown leek. With a good friend’s encouragement, I decided to leave them and so they’re now approaching their third year. I’m dearly hoping for a huge crop of scapes to roast and roll in a thick balsamic vinegar; they go so well with a soft and creamy goat’s cheese. But even if this dreamy promise doesn’t come to fruition, their evolution has been a visual feast, like watching fireworks in very slow motion.

A visit to the greenhouse, to pick some late tomatoes and sort through some drying borlotti beans.

A couple of Winters ago I sent my mum some dried beans. Come the following Spring she sowed them and grew a sprawl of beautiful splatter-patterned, purple pods. And when Autumn arrived she sent me a generous handful from her borlotti harvest. From these I grew my own tangle, and enjoyed some happy, noisy meals with my family, particularly this one, by the very brilliant and wonderful Rachel Roddy. I’ve saved and dried a few dozen and now it’s time to send these new colourful little worlds back down to Mum, for the following Spring.

I love this very much. and I dearly wish we’d started it way back when… when I realised that growing things was destined to be one of the most pleasurable and enduring pursuits, rather than ‘just something your mother does’, along with listening to radio 4.  This particular pastime has taken me on quite a ramble both personally, and in terms of the choices I made when I decided to have a go at drawing stuff for a living.

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It has the ability to buoy me up when I’m flailing and all at sea, and if ever I get a little too smug it’s smartingly quick to deliver an earthy slap of reality. The simple and physical hard graft of growing vegetables… it’s perhaps the most honest and direct friendship one can have with the land. It’s both humbling and inspiring. And for me the rewards are beyond those that I bring home to the kitchen.

Heading back now, a bundle of kale under my arm, and I’m thinking of a warming soup with a perhaps a poached egg on top, and a dollop of fresh pesto.


September... always the one in a hurry

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The beginnings of a bitter-sweet commission… a mistle thrush’s egg, heralding a brief but very welcome return to Spring. This year has been in such a hurry, at times almost tripping over itself in its keenness to reach Autumn.

Outside my studio the bracken has once again grown beyond its ability to support its elaborate flounce of green, and so, much of it now stands stooped like a gathering of arthritic peacocks, awaiting their inevitable demise.

Throughout the Summer months, the two male blackbirds were far too busy (and no doubt exhausted) raising brood. But they’re back now, like sentries guarding their indistinguishable curtilage of berried elder, hornbeam and hazel.

There’s a magpie rasping through his limited repertoire of swear words. But as a gentle counter a wood pigeon has begun a soft and mellow correspondence with another, further away among the jaw of pine teeth that edge the forest.

This little egg would’ve been laid anywhere between the end of Spring and the beginning of Summer. An exciting time to be alive. As autumn races ahead all mistle thrush should be filling their stippled bellies with the bountiful supply of slugs and snails, the majority of which seem to have gathered in their multitude along the edges of my brassica bed, a silent army of slayers awaiting nightfall. And of course there’s now the chaotic cavort of barely airborne crane-flies to tempt any bird looking for an easy snack. The avian larder is brimming.

The transition between seasons can be breathtaking, pregnant as they are with the promise of such a treasure trove of colours. There’s also the undeniable comfort of continuity to appease the quiet creep of seasonal melancholy. Season follows season; Spring (then Summer) will be back.

But perhaps the most visually splendid and genuinely heartwarming tapestry is the one that unfurls as Summer passes the baton to Autumn.

If we could just slow them down a little.

 


Three square miles

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May, June, July…

The same busy little colony, gathering from the same 3 square miles.

From the crying, thermal-riding Buzzard’s view it would appear as just a tiny pocket in the rolling patchwork of textures and oft repeating patterns that weave together the dips and curves of rural Sussex. But from our bees’ perspective it perhaps represents their equivalent of a supermarket aisle, and hopefully a fully stocked one.

In the month of May, a farmer decided to grow a twelve acre carpet of oilseed rape, the bees’ quick-fix equivalent of Macky D’s…and our crabby tree was also a popular meeting place in late April. Each bee met the apple blossom of her eye, becoming almost incapable of leaving the floral feast for overloading her luggage rack with pollen and her tummy with nectar. The field began to fill with cow parsley, and the occasional cowslip, while the hedges became lined with white clouds of Blackthorn. The rich sweet honey they made has set like concrete, and wherever it’s spread it stays put, resolutely immovable until in the mouth where it melts with the texture of grainy tablet fudge.

As May slipped into the blowsy pocket of June, pink pillows of field mallow called out to passing bees to perch, rest a while and feast. In the vegetable garden pea and broad bean plants offered up their their bounty barely hidden amongst the pastel folds, and the nearby dappled cool of forest paths became lined with parades of trumpeting foxgloves. But the overwhelming flood of temptation came from the huge outcrop of Broom that offered up it sunny flanks at the top of the field… It became such a go to place that eventually all three hives made this their restaurant de jour and a daily tide of bees would rope their way to and fro, across the field. We learned to duck and dive beneath this visible highway, marvelling at their enthusiasm, and mithering at possibility of an occasional collision with an unaware human. The honey they conjured tastes like a holiday in the tropics, a gentle sea breeze, the soft fleshy fruit of a cocoa pod laid open, almost toffee…

Then came July and the honey turned the colour of straw. With the field a Jackson Pollock canvas of cheerful splashes, walking through was no longer a quiet affair. Competing with the raspy chirping of grasshoppers, the bees could be heard happy-humming from all corners, with white and pink Clover and Birds Foot Trefoil being the most popular hangouts. In the vegetable garden late flowering courgettes and pumpkins enticed scouting bees to change their dance on returning to the hive, and the hedges became rammed with bramble flower. July’s honey pours like unpastuerised cream, and tastes like a summer pudding… intensely, deeply floral.

Each jar is like a window into another time… it holds the unadulterated essence of a month of flowers. And of course, these aren’t calendar months… because flowers don’t dance to our tune and our need for organising and scheduling every minute, hour, day and month of the year. They don’t bloom for us, they bloom for the bees, gardeners in the truest sense. For the last four years I’ve been lucky enough to observe this extraordinary relationship close up. And the more I see the more I realise how fluid this alliance is, but how vulnerable too. Since caring for bees our rhythm of cutting, pruning, sowing, protecting and harvesting has changed dramatically. Everything is done with the bees’ welfare in mind. What would make the bees (and by extension all pollinators) happy.

I suppose taking a little of their honey could be seen as just rewards for ensuring they’ve a full and varied aisle to gather from. But in truth it still feels a little like robbery. As such we only take enough to enjoy for ourselves… and if there’s any spare I give it away. I’m often asked if I sell my honey to ‘the public’. I don’t think I could. Honey should be seen as unique and of inestimable value. The minute it has a price tag, it makes the work of the bees a commodity. That wouldn’t be a bad thing if they were rated as highly as oil or gas, but sadly for all the newsworthy rallying that goes on in efforts to ‘save the bee’ we’re still a long way from that. I would rather it didn’t have a commercial value… to give it to friends feels good though… the lady with hay fever at the post office, the phlobotemist who patiently waited while I did star jumps to get the blood pumping, the friend who’s three little boys value their pots as we might in possession of the winning lottery ticket, the dear friend who grows things to find peace and joy and understands the rhythm of such things.

These moments sit well in my heart.

As August gathers pace and Summer begins to fade, the bees are now gathering up the last of the nectar and pollen to store in their larders and sustain them through the cooler, darker months. The 3 square miles of foraging becomes a little emptier, but the flowers have been pollinated and with a fair winter, the larder will be full again, come Spring.


The Broad Bean

Most lunch breaks I take a walk down through our field. The grasses are measurably taller against my legs, and the new families of hoppers are now big and bouncy enough to spring board into the backs of my wellies, and even the turn-ups on my shorts. There are daubs of Clover and Birdsfoot Trefoil; rambling outbreaks of Lesser Stitchwort have spread like earthbound constellations. Large shifting islands of Yellow Rattle have appeared, and I’m easily distracted by the swelling patches of Mallow leaf that promise plump cushions of pink. Short spears of Bugle are beginning to draw the eye of Marbled Whites and Meadow Browns, while spiders can be seen with one foot always resting on the edge of their trampoline larders, poised for the vibrations of an unlucky prey. For the first time ever, this year there’s the joyful cascade of bubbling chatter from skylarks! Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought we’d be blessed with such a glorious choir.

Since planting out this year’s young and vulnerable seedlings, I’ve been making regular trips to my veg garden. I’m jangly with the anticipation of the new, the taller, the flowering and the almost fruiting. There’s also a palpable edge of dread. Often I find signs of visitors… the odd pheasant feather amongst the broadbeans, a silvered and neatly scalloped edge of a courgette leaf. But more recently I’ve been finding the occasional, oversized ‘mulberry’ of deer poo. We’ve done as much as is possible to at least guarantee some harvest, but it seems that over the last decade, each new generation of veg plot reveller has been gifted the genetic imprint of a map of this ‘free and full’ larder, and so my planting and protecting has had to become more strategic. Corn (a favourite) is bedded in beneath the cloak of a nut tree and the broad beans will be netted. Onions and garlic will always be the crops nearest the field side fencing as deer (and pretty much every other prospective diner) don’t much care for aliums.

Regardless of this, each visit is a routine and a rhythm that gives great comfort… a little check on my fledgling beans, the resecuring of a wayward pea tendril, a hoe between the sturdy shoulders of the onions to disturb the roots of any weedy interlopers, and a quick chat with the newly planted out purple sprouting broccoli, so small and vulnerable in their earthy corral. The potatoes need little encouragement, and besides they can’t hear me at this point, with their heads buried deep below. (Tell me I’m not the only one who talks to their vegetables.)

I’m writing this in the month of June, and am now fully engaged in the annual Battle of The Broad Beans. Having observed my daily routing, my stealthy opponents only seem to strike when I’m working or sleeping. Already the earth is becoming littered with disemboweled pods. It’s too late to sow more, but now I’ve netted what little remains and hope that the small crowd of beleaguered plants will manage to grow some more pods…

I love broad beans… they make me smile.  They’re such a generous vegetable, giving pleasure throughout the whole process from the twist, twist n pick of the plump and green torpedo, to the slip of the thumb and the slow reveal of the soft velveteen nursery within; a row of smooth skinned cherubs, tiny umbilical cords slowly plumping up these happy beans. The choice of whether to peel once cooked: I love them both ways… that kidney-bitter skin is a rewarding contrast to the butter rich green of the bean within… I love them in a risotto, and adore them with a crumble of cheese and some wild rocket (perhaps some fried off pancetta stirred through).

Over the years, I’ve illustrated many podded vegetables, but have never felt entirely able to capture that freshness on paper. So having learnt to work with egg tempera, I decided that this might be the way to go, to mirror their depth of plush colour and form, and that undeniable sense of treasure revealed.

Of all the powdered pigments that nestle in the dark recesses of my studio drawers, Oxide of Chromium and Genuine Naples Yellow are the very essence of Summer. Dipping a licked-to-a-point brush into egg, then into powder, stirring on white porcelain to blend, then stroking across thick cartridge. There’s a deep and rich melody that plays out in my heart as I work the layers of tempera to create the shape and shadow of the split pod.

The studio window is open most of the time now, any loose papers are anchored with a ball of flint or a slab of slate. The parenting blackbirds are too busy, too tired no doubt, to argue over curtilage rights, so for once there’s just the sound of a breeze cuffing at the sea of bracken outside.

 

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And then, inevitably, came the pea pod…

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If you’d like to know about my work, then do get in touch. I’m always happy to have a chat.

And for those of you who’d like to have a go at painting in egg tempera, then I’m delighted to say that I’m running a couple of courses in September! One is due to be held at the gorgeous Otter Farm, and the other at the very beautiful Thyme. If you’re interested, then do get in touch with them to find out more. They’re truly inspiring places and it would be very lovely to see you there! Meanwhile, for more egg tempera illustrations in amongst other work, head over to instagram.

Anna x